CROSSWORD AND LIFE'S LESSONS

We are all born equal besides the major differences of gender,socio- economic conditions ,culture,etc,while some of us do have the best opportunities to enjoy and have all the adventures and treasures in life,some are not fortunate enough to even have a morsel of hot gruel,but would have had many experiences what the former can never even get..
Well how many of us can  spend some time observing the world around us,watch the few birds crippling,see the new flower bloomed in our pot,which is awaiting for our side look,and of course the daily news paper,which is never failed to be delivered.Leaving aside those colorful advertisements,which can spoil your day,not interested in the first few pages,where the life line of our county is debated,we conveniently skip to the last pages to scan on the sports session,even thou we know what it would carry,we do not want to miss staring at a photo which was already telecast n number of times on the TV well that's were our interest lies,what about the other entertainment stuff such as Sudoku,jumbles and crosswords,well many times, we avoid, attempting them for the following
we at times(many times) underestimate our intelligence,so guess it is for nerds
we do not have enough time to spend for such silly activities,where we have to crush our brains
 we may have attempted once or twice and then resigned to the proverb.once bitten twice shy.
I also fall into one of the category or all of them,so many times skipped these items without any attempts.
It was a Sunday,after,making sure that there's nothing more to read or stare at i had flung the news paper,on the cot.My daughter who is normal ally a late riser on Sunday grabbed the paper and unfortunately started putting her hands on the crossword puzzle,suddenly solving crossword, which was till than rated as a useless stuff became very important to me (I had to establish that I was better or at least as smart as my daughter) WE ALWAYS WANT TO FIGHT BATTLES WITH WEAK OPPONENTS AND CLAIM THEM AS GREAT VICTORIES!!  So now both of us were using our synergy to complete the blocks.
SO far so good, we could see that we were filling up boxes and the once plane boxes were now filled with some alphabets,having exhausted our ability,we resigned that nothing further could be done and gave up,and started doing other activities of the day,however the unfinished crossword was lingering on the backdrop And every time I happened to see that paper again,I started scanning the clues, whether I can crack some and to my surprise I found that different words were opening up at various point of time.And at some point I was almost amazed to see that 90% of the puzzle was filled.

 which made me happy and also made me to draw some conclusions analogous to life

Many times we never venture into new activities,be it sports/business/hobby ,or studies,
fearing that we may not have the required knowledge or skill,by giving a try nothing is lost,we may not get 100% results in the first trial,but we may see that with persistent efforts may hit the Targets

Life too poses us with different problems and might be we would really knot know where to start or which to do first,lets us start the process from what ever we know and by solving three known problems,you will find the fourth one is already solved.

When we give a little time  and relook at the problem,new perspective and new ideas flip from some where,which means the solutions are hidden ,some where within us,with the right type of probing we can unearth them.
Well after spending considerable time solving them,I just scrolled down a bit further,where I found the printing,"ANSWERS TO THIS CROSSWORD AT PAGE ...,WHICH WAS JUST THE REVERSE OF THE PRESENT PAGE"

It gave a momentary relief,because I could rate myself, whether,I had done the job correctly,But at the same time the thrill of solving the crossword was lost,Because your other side of the brain was always chattering and saying why make guesses?why should you be thinking so much?its a easy way out,turn the page and confirm.Why waste your time and energy? AND also reminded what a drab life can be if we had ready made solutions to every thing.Because,  we  lose interest in any object or person or A relationship,the moment we posses it or if we are sure to find it.
Very beautifully penned by kavingar Kannadasan,  "KANNUKU AZAGHU ETHUVARAI KAYIL KEDAIKUM NAAL VARAI"(worth/ value/charm or importance of any object or person is felt,only till such time that its not possed by you).
So life is made interesting not by having everything that we want,But by earnestly making efforts to get what we want,ant still having a big wishlist to chase and Achieve,which should be a continious process....Making life much memorable and challenging

WE REAP WHAT WE SOW

God cannot be present everywhere and that’s why he made  Mothers, this is an adage that exist even today and I think is followed to a certain extent ,only till such time that we are independent and are on our own. And parents become useless,nagging,and an mere punching bag to us,for all our problems.

Remember the days of our growing up, Mothers were the only soul who stood by us taking all insults and bashing, protecting us from whatever small or big trouble,basking us with praise that we are their treasure and we would defenitely be a pillar of support on whom they can lean in their old age.
Above all, recall how possessive she was /is that she ever believes that her son/daughter CAN NEVER be on the side of injustice.or can never be wrong 

Recall the days when mothers rush to the neighbors/schools/shops etc when something is uttered about their child and so confidently argue, saying you say a thousand thing about my child ,but I know what my child is ,and I believe he/she would not do or act like this.
 Well how many of us give the same credit to our Mother/Father  AND SAY a loud, You say a thousand things about my Mom/Dad, I know about her/him, They are not capable of saying or doing it? Well we would have definitely said like this and stood by them, only till such time that we got married, Because we have passed over the right of certifying our Parents character to our spouses, and at a later stage to our kids

Why? and what make us to erase all the goodness what we received at their behest and throw them and treat them more shabbily than a beggar?

Is it that the feeling of taking care of them once they becomes a dependent on us is seen as a big burden  and as a preventive step we want to keep them away?

Why are we losing our rational thinking process and judgmental powers, which we are so good at when we deal officially,  and so biased when we deal with our parents?

Why  are we not even giving them the minimum respect and love what we are generous to show towards, dogs and  cats, which we deny them.

When we know that every coin has two faces and every part of the story has two narrations, why does it so happen that, the Narration given about our mother/parents  is always true and we pass on the judgment, so very instantaneously, abusing them and accusing them for everything on earth, right from the mistake of bring us to this blessed world .

Well I am remained about a old  widowed lady, who stayed, our next  door, She would have been at least in her seventies, with wrinkled skin covering her skeleton, draped in a 9 yard faded cotton sari blouse less, who was a dependent on her lone son who was supporting his big family. After inheriting his father’s job. The lady was never allowed to enter the house, and her living was mostly restricted to the last door step of their house.

We had never seen her treated with food ,clothing or shelter, But she had a sense of responsibility that as dawn broke, she would set off with a broken bamboo basket to collect cow  dung  that’s littered by stray cows and Buffalo's,

Once the collection was copious she would set off to convert them into cow dung cakes to meet the fuel requirements of the house. So she never wanted to lead a life of uselessness, but her presence or existence was never acknowledged by her son, daughter in law or grand children. She never had a daughter and I don’t know whether life would have been better had she had one or it would have been more horrible

Only rarely when she was either sick or under distress, she would keep Wailing softly calling  out her son’s name or that of her grand children, for a glass of water or coffee. Her son who was naturally hard of hearing, never responded to her cries or might be( he was  turning a deaf ear, as many of us do)She would be encountered by a rude shock, when one of her grandson would emerge and give her two kicks at her butt, and yell Aye Kezavi(old lady)  can’t you keep quite. Why the hell are you wailing?

Pain, topped with humiliation would silence the old lady, who would return to her spot of cow dung heap to be dried in the sun along with the  dung.

What surprised us than, was the silence and non intervention of her son, who never questioned any one for treating his mother so badly , .The man never had any misunderstanding or discord with his family towards, such a shabby treatment meted out to his Mother. We knew that old lady was given a raw deal .and We  IMAGINED OR WOWED THAT our mother/parent would never come across such a situation, FOR WE WERE GOOD CHILDREN AND OUR MOTHER WAS BRINGING US UP WITH VALUES.

Well we have up kept  this principle, only till such time that we did not have  a family of our own, and this Anathema of mistrust and ill treating has become a norm in every family(if any one screams and say no I do not fall in this category, He or she would be the biggest hypocrite).

We really do not  know when this genesis  has sprouted to treat our own people so were shabbily and  clue less about how this anemia can be rooted  out,Any way let us stand by the principle Every body’s  Dignity is to be given due respect, when we cannot give our Parents dignity to live, Let us atleast extend the courtesy of allowing them to die in peace

After all every child/son/daughter, daughter in law  today are either fathers and mother now or are going to be  Fathers and Mothers of tomorrow, Awaiting to be served with the same serving and to  reap what  we have sowed

80/20 principle

I am(rather we are) listening,hearing ,seeing ,reading various topics that are discussed day in and day out,FDI in retail,Economical slowdown,Recession,Revival of economy, Private- Public partnership,Scams, Democratic /economic reforms ,Revolutions and public out  cry on the States policy,Heated debates are going on ,On methods of improving one of these issues or to introduce methods to implement some or all of these measures so that life of ordinary man will flourish?Government would have had the satisfaction of having met? The aspiration of people who have elected them(aam- aadmi), The country would become one amongst economically strong Nation.
Well even though, these are never ending Businesses, what the government has to execute. and I have nothing else  to do but just thinking and sinking in my thoughts, looking out of my car window ,while I had a drive of Around 200 kms to see my parents and  was returning  back,what caught my attention,were besides the array of houses and a few organised work establishments,the entire stretch was occupied with small vendors,selling petty items, ranging from scissors,handkerchiefs,fish,flowers,garments,furniture,repair workshops,etc,etc on the pavements,slightly bigger ones  (only because they were housed in a 5/5 or 5/10 shops)  doing similar business,druggist,cell pone accessories,motor spare parts,stationary stores,fancy stores  mutton stalls  etc,
and yet bigger establishments of textiles/eateries etc,but the presence of all commodities crisis, cross were interesting and also evoked some soul searching questions?
Can we say that this is the group that has been orphaned by both private, including the government in enabling them get a sustained  income by means of providing a job?

Can we say that this is a group of individual ,who are self content(because i couldn't see them doing huge business)with what ever they earn, which has made them,stick on with these establishments as their livelihood,even thou it might be a hand to mouth existence

Can we say that these people are more confident and sure that, a government job or a Permanent fixed income is not necessary to support them and have ignored the presence of such institutions of support.

Can we say that they have resigned to the awkward destiny of their fate that they have decided to live in this penury,for generations to come.

Can we say that this is a group of incorrigible people who believe they can never accept a boss over them and are happy bossing them selves Knowing that the Government is not for them or their welfare

Well while extrapolating these groups and plotting the normal office goes.in private as well as government establishment,revealed that they were falling into a preconceived pattern of 80/20 principle.

Well it was in theyear 1906 sir,Vilfredo Pareto the renowned economist,established a set pattern which is applied worldwide that fits into this distribution.for example,we spend 80%of our day doing unimportant things and do qualitative things only 20% of the day.
In factories/office /household,its 20%of population which helps completing 80%of the out put,while 20%is responsible for 80% of output.
In a class you may find 20%of the students falling in the group of Nerds and the remaining 80% being Average performers.
Even in our thought process we spend 80%of our energy worrying about trivial issues,while 20 %is spent on important  issue.
 The principle of Pareto is widely used in Manufacturing and other establishments This is one of the reason that if we do A 20% Quality check on finished goods where we are sure of meeting 80% of the possible defects and certify that 100% checks are done
So also in organisations 20% of posts are managerial ,while 80%goes down below,well are you people guessing why I have travelled away from  my thought process?
 Well its these 80%of people who are employed in such unorganized sectors, who have elected  This Government(who never seem to get  cared by it) and who hardly contribute 20% towards its Economy. While the Government works to ensure the safety and stability of 20%of the people who hold the key for 80% of economical growth,who have grabbed all Major infrastructures, that's the Reason,why all policy of the Govt have very little impact on the common man,cause he is not the target population for reforms.
Here too the reforms are skewed 20% towards,the below poverty line,who are the 80% of vote bank80% of reforms for the 20%population holding major industries,because 80%of funding to run elections are to come from them
well if we stretch this concept of  80/20,Principle, we might find that it would occupy all Areas,yes before I conclude,even though our brain which is so small hardly weighing less than 500 gms,takes 20%of the blood circulation of our system and controls 80%of our Activity.So scheduling our priorities accordingly would make our life more easier

ARAKKONAM

 Arakkonam the topic of my blog would have ringed strange in our ears,if it had been written a few months back.But n0w it has already gained popularity,due to a Movie,that is slated for release
I would really like to complement the Director(who is still unknown ) ,for having chosen this title for his movie to be released shortly, I was just listening to an Advertisement about this movie. and grew intrested
 for the simple reason that Arakkonam has been  my adopted home town that's been familiar for me for  a few decades.
Arakkonam by itself has under gone a lot of change right from its name logy of ARKONAM (TAUGHT  to pronounce as ahkonam,by my primary anglo teachers) to Arakkonam,besides increasing its schools from a handy 4 to around 50 and also having a dozen colleges,while we had to depend on Chennai or kanceepuram for our Continuation beyond schooling's.
Arakkomam is neither a small village nor a big city ,but defined as a town and has an inhabitant varying between 1 to 1.3 lakhs, Of course its well connected by rail and road, Around 70 kms from Chennai Is
 the mid point for the famous temples of Tirrutanni/Kancepuram/Sholingur,Has had an air field in 1942 used during world war II,Occupies a Place in history, since this is the place to have had third rail route put up and run,between madras and Arakkonam.Has a place called Thakkolam,which was the battlefield used by the Cholas/pallavas and currently has the honor of having the largest military runway in Asia "Rajali "naval air base  Not a highly literate place,but has been a hub supporting students, from near by villages,and with schools of good repute, which was attended by our President of INDIA sh RADA KRISHNAN , ,and the first school run by anglo Indians ,for Railways in the country. With a sizesable settlement of Anglo Indians .
Had a small Industrial complex,comprising 7 to 8 workshops.One of the main source of employement for many was/ is the Railway work shop ,Ramco Cements .And  the steel plant. Arakkonam junction(Railway station )has been used by film makers on a few occassion,might be because  of lesser traffic ordeals.
Well I guess this  intro on Arakkonam would suffice for any stranger,who wants to have a demographic idea about the place and does not have any thing quite unique to recall,other than being very near and accessible to the Great Metro city Chennai.
Well,my curiosity is increasing to know what can be the story line/plot of this Movie, Does it Begin in  Arakkonam and end in Arakkonam,Well,who can be that lucky subject  for  this film, or what can be the incident around which the story line is entwined with.
Does it describe one of those romantic love stories that travel from Arakkonam to chennai by Jolarpettai express and end with a happy ending/or otherwise

Is it about the intresting travel time of one hour between chennai toArakkonam and back by the same train,were you can really have a demonstrative class on time management,where lessons are read,  home works completed,hair dried and platted,the ladies have their final touches of make up before alighting,busy office goers skillfully chopping the vegetables required for cooking for their morning pack ups,skillfully,making malas of jasmine, while a word by word narration on either the naughty boss or troublesome supervisor goes on or a more descriptive narration of the difference of opinion what prevails bet ween her and her husband is narrated to her yet to be married freind,who starts giving her inexperienced expert coments of handling the situation.OR A silly fight which starts as a word of exchange for adjusting and leavinge a small place to accomodate his wife or kid on the already crampped seat, which carries on till you reach the last destination,  OR a day to  day account on the town entouring all the govt/private establishments and giving a count by count of the story and the life style of the people their,
Is it going to talk about a suddenly sprung rich contractor ,who ultimately died alone when all his money was gone and left to be cremenated in a shabby way.
Will it talk about the educated Freindship that still exists between the educated friend and his street pal, who sits selling corriander inthe bazaar,
Does it have a police officer,who once tried  to reform,the place with his reforms
or has the usual narration of two groups of rivalry that end up  attacking each other and killing themselves

Does it have the goresome incident, when a tanker load of petrol was on fire on the tracks,which exploded,causing people in far flung villages too to sit out a full night,not knowing what would follow next.

Will  it talk about the well dressed and angloised indians,their culture and their extinct.?
Would it talk about a full day within the campus of the naval air base and the quality life of the military persons?
Would it talk about the rise and fall of congress party, which was launched by our former Prime minister Mrs Gandhi personally,and the heros who stood by her.?
Will it have the never repaired subway and the newly constructed court which would remain as land marks describe Arakkonam,or will  it gives an account about the once huge lakes and water bodies and the catch of fishes which strived as a business ,which is no more.
well I have such questions being asked, and would really like to see through ,which window the Director of the Movie has tried to show Arakkonam to a Larger population,which knows nothing more about this small town besides being a Major Railway junction,where you are sure that the train would stop,for you to refresh yourself with a magazine and snacks.And meet the request of your nagging son or spouse,who had wanted some thing on their long journey,where you would have promised let Arakkonam come.

OWNERS PRIDE-NEIGHBOURS ENVY

I hope by now many of us would have forgotten,these numbers   38  27  23 and 0 2  4(its definetily not some telephone no or a winning lottery no or the size of any of our celebrity).It is the final tally of Medals won by China our neighbouring country in the order of gold ,silver,and bronze  and the adjoining numbers is that of our Mother land
well there is nothing to accuse  us,if we have forgotten, because,in our busy life  wth problems galore it is quite understandable, that we could give only a partly  attention  to these events and than switch over to much presenting situations and events drawing our attention.
well I was reminded about our fantastic(?)performance in the Olympics 2012. At least half the population of our country are enthralled by the pride of we bagging six medals.Lets not belittle our Hero's ,who have saved our pride they deserve our praise and recognition,But our neighboring country having and sharing all similar strength and weakness as ours showed a mighty performance,which we can match only in our dreams.(perhaps recall a advertisement where a small boy comes and says amma i came 2nd in the running race, where the mother is thrilled and treats him with sweets,while the father asks how many people participated and the boy will say 2)
While some news channels were discreetly discussing about our dismal performance in the OLYMPICS and as usual,doing a postmortem for the probable reasons for our poor show.(WE are always ready to fix responsibility after allowing mistakes to happen)
Well, the reasons what were attributed were quite genuine and  acceptable,like
i)We are capable to prove some thing as an individual,but fail collectively,when we are a team,very
true,because all the six medals  what came through was only in individual events (A typical Indian crab scene)
2)The next argument that was placed were regarding ,not having the backing of good coaches,because we are not prepared to give them the right kind of re-numerations,And the coaches in turn do not have the required motivation and drive to achieve desired results
well this again can be accepted,because we are over cautious in extending a penny more ,when it comes to some one else .As we are bread with a lot of conservative ideas.
The next in line was that
3)There is no real seriousness in the selection process,which is not transparent,which is more skewed and laced with discretion and nepotism,where by the just and talented lot are not considered,while people with lesser talents find their way."Very true"we can see this even in small ,small selection process,so cannot be ruled out.
But after  these soul searching facts, are we going to overcome these hurdles and put a brave
face in the forth coming Olympics" NO" Why?Because these are very minor things for us to feel
ashamed of,"After all we do not process  the gene of sucess and victory"

I know there may be a cry of denial that this is a very generalistic statement and we as individuals are far superior and quite sucessful,but if we believe that as per darwins theory we are the decendents of our fore fathers,we will agree that ours was the only country that has been  invaded
and ruled by kings of different clans,from the Portugese,French, Britisher,Mugals(persians)
and than the different dynasty's kanishka, Gupta, Ashoka .etc. ect ,which means we are capable of surrendering without a fight or its in our blood that we underestimate the strength of our opponents or we never prepare ourself fot the inevitable,which is carried forward, or not enhancing our skills in tune with our opponents and that's why I said we do not contain the winning gene.

Well leaving these things,how many of us have really seen a Hockey stick in its physical form,
After all it is our National game.To be very frank I have seen them only on the silver screen(cinema).Many times for the wrong reason ,as a handy weapon used by villians in movies.And for once with a positive note in Chakde india.Why is it that we have not really cared about this game?Is it too complicated than cricket and tennis? well I have no answers but only feel its time that we choose some other game in which we have a edge and declare it as our National game.So that atleast we would be proud to put our heads High with winning a gold in our "national game.'"
While just musing over this I was intrested to know what are the sports accessories I have at home
well I  could sight two table tennis raquets a few batamintion bats a few shuttle cock,a volley ball
and a tenni coit ,well these are there even thou there no serious sports person at home.and I an sure that many houses would definetly have a cricket bat,stumps,pads and ball(after all its a pride to play cricket) or at least to identify our self with cricket But note that no house sports a hockey stick, even for monumental reasons,just for the sake that its a OUR NATIONAL GAME.So with this back ground when are we going to get a gold  in Olympics? for our National game.The only thing that can happen would be that Hockey is scraped from the list of games hosted and some thing else subsitute.as our national came.
When I was stormed with such mixed feelings of helpless- ness I was just viewing yet another TV programme,were a guest dignitary is posted with a question by the host ,which is the favourite game that you play ?  well I was eager to know the response and was shocked ,when She said" Diamond rush" MIGHT BE ON HER MOBILE OR I PHONE.so ultimately now  OUR ATTITUDE towards games has been  restricted to a few  movements of our nimble fingers,so why dream  about a huge rally of medals, lets always be the envious neighbor and leave the pride for others





   

Public speaking_AN ART

Many of us have experience this feeling of discomfort occasionally or as often as possible,we rarely felt at  ease over it, right from our child hood.Recall  our teacher called us to either read out a paragraph aloud in the class or asked us to answer a question or recite a poem.The moment that we are made to stand up and say some thing, invariably many of us barring a few  would have experienced,cold hands,trembling legs dried vocal cords and either stammered out the answers fumbling many times, if it was a question,read out in a monologue skipping words and sentences in fear if it was a reading test or hissed out under our breath croaking out some ineligible soundsif it was some response.
This physological fear has continued to dominate  us even today.The Most disguting part of any meeting is the Self introduction  portion,Many times I have even noticed people forgetting their names .We sit in  important meetings intently attending and acknowledging what ever is being told,but the moment a question is Raised asking about our comments or feedback, we rarely express our-self, in spite of having all the data in hand,ever imagined what could be the reason. well, its quoted that Next to death,the second feared item for any human is public speaking.
 We always admire people who can speak out spontaneously and wonder where from they have been gifted with this special talent(of course we often forget that we too have this in our blood,have we ever lost any of our quarrels/arguments with your spouse,parents,mother in law etc etc,where you just get all the vocabulary that you have never used in a free flow,amazed at your power of rememberance ,cause you can quote every instance of injustice or annoyance that you met with, How many Examples and quotes we are capable of throwing out) But why do we fail when it comes to saying a few words in public,  in front of a select group of audience.
Speakers also have their share of apathy,while we listen to some speakers intently and  want them to go on you may find them winding up.and in some other occasions,we may just keep waiting for the speaker to say those last words of conclusion amidst of booeing and claps to bid them an early exit.If we make a crisp analysis it may turn out that not all successful people are good speakers.But invariably all goods speakers have been real success in their chosen paths of progression

If we dole on the the essential attributes that makes anyone a better speaker.,the first and fore most maybe the content and information what is to be discussed.
INTERESTING:Every one of us would agree that we are really impressed with an interesting talk rather than an intelligent speech,and to make any content interesting it has to be laced with good anecdotes and topped with good humour,, just to recall all of us enjoyed the pattimandram speech of 5 minutes, better than the long drawn speeches on our Independence day. And the reasons can be guessed by all.The earlier speech was instantaneous,it had originality,and entwined with emotions. The later was a pre prepared speech,which depended more on the type of delivery,and was made flat by the speakers for lack of emotion and a bad preperation
We cannot set aside that all political speeches are monotonic,we should not forget that only with this single weapon of such inspiring and power packed speeches, the people have identified their leaders,not to miss Abraham Lincon, Mahatma Gandhi, Winston Churchill and WHO ARE STILL looked up with great respect for their prowess on public speaking,which were inspiring,motivating and had very strong messages to be carried forth.
When we were young we have heard our neighbours or parents commenting,வாய்  உள்ள பிள்ளை   பீழைத்து  கொள்ளும் (A child with speaking skills will survive all odds)And that looks a reality that of late the best paid people are motivational speaker, politicians, radio jockeys,news analysts and those umpteen number of consultants and religious spiritual gurus, who are capable of selling any thing thro their uninterrupted speech.
So lets not fear any more to speak out what we can with courage and with out any inhibitions, After all practice makes perfect so we can also be one among the good speakers

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IN SEARCH OFF.......

My day is not complete,without this activity ,Its as routine a thing as I wake up,brush my  teeth, Do my hair,visit the grocery.etc.etc.well I know that you would  not have zeroed in on it.
well for me a day is not complete without this activity."Me searching in vain for a item thats presumed  lost".(while it most probably would have been misplaced).
If you are one of those persons,whose is quite syestamatic and well groomed,would exclaim how very silly for a person to be so careless,who cant take care of such trivial things?
Well you would be amazed if I tell you that I  lose (misplace) things only because I  want them to be safe and in my continuous monitor where they are I shift them to safer spots??  AND FORGET WHERE IT LANDED ULTIMATELY ending with Me searching for some thing every day.
There are days  when I switch off and go to bed and suddenly remember some thing and sit up and search.when it comes to what are the items I search, it varies,right from a safety pin to a precious jewel and the efforts what I put in for both the items  are the same.
God only knows how  even a printed receipt of no value. becomes precious the moment I come to know that it is missing.
Even thou the activity of searching is labourious and painful, these are the moments which makes my day,For I am sure that at the end of this activity  I  will end up finding  some thing else which evaded my search earlier .well these are the instances when I come across items of memories,
I go around searching for a guarantee card  and land up with a bunch of letters written by my loved ones so the guarantee card takes a second least priority and I sit down with the letters and start reading them one after the other  relating myself to the days and moments,so many flash backs and short films unroll and I give up my search for the guarantee card,well for the day my quota to search has ended with good reminiscent.
Next day suddenly I remember that I have to take stock of some of my accessories and now i am in the midst of all items spurn around me, but the accessories kit is no where to be seen, while i have located the guarantee card and of course fumbled on one of my favorite Music /CD and now the urge to listen to it has put my searching spree to a back seat,
like this there are many items of interest in our possession, but we never bothered to spend time with, which shows up in a search,A old photo album, A Book from your favorite author,A gift from you small kid,A card from your son/daughter.A dress that you dont fit into but which was presented by your dad for your birth day,A report card of your young  days,which you scared to see,which made you to smile now.Like this we unravel so many small ,small happiness in this process of searching,which ultimately makes" MY day" even thou the worry about that missed item still lingers.
Well the most recent Search,which I  am involved in is for a nail cutter,the moment I saw my nails,I could'nt resist the urge that it requires a trimming and once this feeling sets in,I can do nothing else and my whole energy is focused only on cutting the nails and good heavens I cant find it, well the search continued with different outcomes,but not the nail cutter,so having given up on it today I was on a search for my pen,losing pens is my hobby,bu ETC..but some thing told me that even if I dont succeed in finding my red pen.I would find the nail cutter,Very true I am holding the nail cutter .SO hope to get the pen some other day, while I search for some thing else.
With my endless PATIENCE for searching I have understood the following
Search makes your Monotonous life lively
Search helps you to remember  the little happiness,which you deserve
Every search results in getting more lost items
You only lose some thing,when you give up your search
You really do not know what is its worth unless you have lost it
so putting it back into the known adage ,KNOCK it will open.
ask you will get,Search you will find
And lastly lets not restrict our search to worldly things but also  the GOD within us,Which Iam sure that we will find if the search is not given up.